When I am doing what I can do (like being a jobbing doctor) I am OK. When I am teaching GP Registrars and Medical Students I am fine.
However, when I am not in my comfort zone, I get a bit nervous. If I am facing a fluent Italian speaker my Holiday Italian just dries up (Italiano dei Vacanze?). If I'm asked about plants or gardening, I stare blankly (my sister is our adviser on the garden).
Tonight is worse.
I have to have an audition to stay in the amateur choir I sing in. I will have to bring a piece to sing, do some sight-reading, and have an aural test with the conductor (who is a Professor). I am not a musician, I am a doctor, and wonder if I will be able to perform tonight.
I have decided to sing an old Somerset Folk Song, set by Benjamin Britten, called 'The trees they grow so high'.
I am very anxious that I don't foul up. Mrs JD says I'm just being stupid [mind you she always says that].
Here's hoping it goes well.
